The Theme song of my life

My heart filled with joy………wanna know why?Today, I was reminded of the song entitled ‘Cinta Pertama (Sidney Mohede)’ . Perhaps not many who know this song….however, you could say that it is ‘the theme song of my life’. I used to think that loving someone means that u have to love that person with all of your heart…….yet, ready to die for him. I was COMPLETELY WRONG. When u put your heart to someone, u have to be ready for the deep cut in your heart. U have to be ready to sacrifice, think about others’ joy instead of thinking about ur need.
When I felt my first deep cut….I was so miserable. It seems that I don’t see any purpose of why I should stay alive in this world……Fortunately, my Jc turns His eyes on me and took pity on me and gave me strength to go through all of those things. He gave the song in my heart….. It is said that we have to love Him more than anything…anywhere…anytime…more precious than gold…..stronger than anything I know, ur name is to my heart……..
He is Jesus ….my pal…my daddy….my teacher…..my boss…..
All in all, there’s no one worthy to be loved except Him…..we only have conditional love when He doesn’t. He loves us even when we hurt Him……He loves us even when we call Him only to fulfill our needs.
Nothing in this world is eternal……our environment’s changing, people around us come and go, our hobbies are changing, our hairstyle could be changing, our beloved one’s feeling could change. There’s only one which is not changing ….it’s His love…………….THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE……………….

Hold ur anger

anger……….everyone knows it…everyone experiences it………everyone tries to take control of it…….
Proverb 14:17 says a quick-tempered man does foolish things……that’s why try to control ur temper…it’s gonna be easy,but worth to be tried…..today,somebody told me that her friends hated me after one of my colleagues scolded them and told them that I was the one who reported it to him. I was burst in anger, however I try to control myself. I could do nothing. I am in the middle of hard decisions. If I told my colleague and straighten the problem,I’m afraid he couldn’t accept my explanation and become more angry….if I told the students what was really happened at that time (because it’s just a misunderstanding) , I’m afraid they will be wondering on who is the spy among them that told me all of these problems……..puzzling…….
Yet, I don’t want to be foolish…….just ask Jesus to help me and the others settle the problems

Independent teams help students…….. to be independent

Time passed by and I just realized that it’s been a year since my first comment about the awful National Exam. The National Exam runs smoothly this year….we also have to thank the independent team consist of University’s elements that become the watchdogs. They observed the students who try to cheat, the invigilators who let them cheat, and many other things that lead to any cheating in National Exam. I heard some incidents from the days of exam….my friend told me that one of the strict independent team warned the invigilator who let the students open a piece of paper with the letters of answer on it. On the other occasion, she also warned the invigilators who had a chatting in the exam room……Thank you independent team..u make students to be ‘independent’.

Easter … is time to share

My students and I went to orphanage this afternoon. quite tiring since we had to cover almost 1 hour car driving to         reach that place. Yet, it’s so exciting to know them and get along with them. I’m really proud of my class students who can come in time and arrange the event in the orphanage (We have recorded their performance and I’ll publish it later on). But not too proud of them since they couldn’t feel the sense of sympathy. they still breed their selfishness by giving donation reluctantly, and nobody wanted to donate the amount of money above the expected donation. in fact, some of them told me that they prefer to go to PTC. some were doing it because it is a compulsory event  from school.

Easter….is a special day to me now.  why ‘now’? I used to think that Christmas is the special day since Jesus has been bornt in this world for us. However, I found out that Easter is the special day couple of years ago.  the reason is because I experienced so many miracles from God in Easter. in couple of years ago,  God helped me to go to my dream place which I thought I couldn’t reach it on my own. The place where I work helped me out. Then, I could meet and gather again (eventhough only for some times) with my dream person (the person that I wanna meet) thanks to the dream that he’s got so that he’s willing to meet me.

Easter …to me is a more  special day than xmas day. I guess I’m so obsessed with what Jesus had said on the cross “It is finished” (as what being preached by my pastor) what does the word mean?

it means….for all things that He has to do to redeem our sin…accomplished

for all of your sins ….that’s it…cut it…end it..

for all of your problems………….settled down

and it’s all because of Him ….being crucified…..isn’t it all  marvelous?

without looking down to Xmas day…..I do thank God for being on the cross for me….Do u?

earth hour

today …..many people kill their lights at home to sav3 the energy at 8.30-9.30 pm. I plan to      have it, but forget to do it. however, thanks God that today people can be so concern about environment.  HOW ABOUT YOU ?

Me….myself……..and all about me

I am the eldest from two brothers and one sister. I(would say that) I am so lucky to have Jesus as my living God who gave me opportunity to be in my family and to go to university. I am not from the well-off family. My father passed away when I was on the first day of my junior high school. My mom had to run a building material’s store alone.

One of the memories that I cannot forget is the time when my mom accompanied me to university for the registration. I wasn’t as independent as I am now. We took bemo and pedicab. There’s another story about it. When we took a pedicab in the middle of day, my mom covered her & my face from the hot sun shine with her bag. Suddenly, out of nowhere and it happened so quickly, a motorcycle ran to our pedicab and took the bag fast. We couldn’t catch them. So we lost the money & other important cards inside the purse.

My mom is the most important person in my life. When I was in my second year of college, my mom told me that she has to borrow her siblings’ money to pay my tuition. When she did that, she told me that one of her brothers treated her badly. He and his wife didn’t let her in. (maybe what other people say is right that a friend can be closer than a brother)(That’s why we cannot depend on others,especially on relatives,even though u know that they can help u) . Therefore, I do hope that one day I can make my mom happy by giving her time to retire and make her happy.

To be continued…………..

Hypocrite

Not everybody is familiar with this word. Even though, they do it everyday. As a matter of fact, I did it as well. (Confession :- )

It happened when I was on duty to look after senior high school’s stud3nts in their national examination. It’s been a public secret that the watches have to be lenient to the students. They have to pretend that they don’t know if the students ask their friends for the answers.

However, I didn’t do it on the first day of the exam. I kept an aye on everyone of them and give a signal if I found them cheating by coughing or staring at the person. I told my friend (teacher from other school) that I cannot let them do it because it will ruin their future and somebody’s up there watching (I mean “God”) . Yet, I noticed that my friend goes with the majority. When the students (from science class. Can u imagine?) asked for the answers without hesitation,she pretended that she didn’t see anything. She looked at the floor and got a day dream.

I didn’t realize that I was too strict to students until my fellow worker (from my school) told me that I had been picked out by other teachers. They knew my name and they probably hate me.

When I write this story, I was on my third day for my duty to keep an eye on them. I learned that I mustn’t be too strict for them. I learned to be hypocrite. That’s why I used my time to write this story,otherwise, I won’t be able to write for my blog for good.

Note : For Corry (the beautiful lady who made this blog for me) – Cor, I finally have time to write for my blog.